talk about havin a premonition, a 6th sense.. sighz.. or is it some kind of a mental connection that we still have? He's pissed with me for holding on to the dive watch for so long. He's here to get it TODAY. infact, he got it 5 mins ago.. when he called, i've got a feeling he wont be alone.. somehow knew that someone else would be in the car. Someone who wants to see me so badly. someone who wants to know if she's better than me in anyway.. someone who needs some form of assurance as to why her boyfriend loves this fuckin bitch!. How do i know?? OF CUZ I DO!! this scene is far too familiar.. a not too long time ago, while we were still blissfully in love, I was that girl sitting in the car, waiting 2 see veronica. i was the jealous lil girlfriend, who wants to see who's this girl whom tony was so deeply in love with. Ha.. how time flies... now i'm the EX, and she's the current girlfriend..

To a certain extend, i sorta empathize with her, she must be feeling low, feeling down, cuz tony must haf told her alot about me. she looks average, not too bad looking, shorter, plummer than me.. but definately Fitter. Just took a glance at her.. didnt stare.. couldnt wait to leave the couple. leave them alone. Not create any more chaos for them. She could be feelin complacent too.. she might be thinking "oH, so this is how she looks.. nothing much ma.." .. whatever it is, i know that i'm out of his life, n she's taken over my place. taken over a long time ago.

Long time ago, when i met veronica. i was consumed with hate, jealousy, thinking, why am i not as good as her, why cant i be like her.. but i strongly believed that i'm his present, n veron's his past. i hope that Sharon *tony's current gf* would think this way too.. if only i could sooth the pain in her heart.. tony hurt her in some ways that concerned me, i seem to be the lil thorn in their relationship, when i didnt do anything. i merely borrowed a dive watch a month back!! They almost broke up.. I'm so sorry that these had to happen. i never meant any harm. infact, i never knew that he was attached! if i did, i'd never have contacted him..

well, if it comes to a point that my invisible presense is felt in their relationship, i'd jolly well break all contact willingly. If u cant have a love, give it up to others. In that way, not only will they feel loved, but a new love will come to u as well.. at least that's what i hope... tk care tony n sharon.. wish ya happines...