it's been quite a while since i've not been mad, stressed, annoyed, crazy, pissed, or anything negative, so that's good i guess. probably this was so because my roadshow was over on last tuesday. sales was good, my business partner's happy. therefore, so am i. expected shit, due to an excess of cash, but hey hey.. things turned out better than expected.

partly why this week is so smooth flowing because, i didn't see a point in being upset in anything. what's the use, really? i was thinking one night, not that i wanted to but it was stuck in my head like a bad techno song. my dad's leaving this friday for good.. frankly, i don't know if i'll be fine on that day. i don't really feel anything now though but somehow i know, this is not going to be good. my mom is turning cranky, not sure if it's cos' of this though. my house will be chaotic i tell you.. my biggest worry is having clothes to wear in future. i bet you find that funny don't you. i'm not home for at least 15 hours everyday. i'm too bloody busy doing this and doing that. my bro is worse than me, why? he's gonna have his O's soon, but he still goes out everyday. i won't say him, what's the use, cos' we will end up quarrelling, worse still like the previous time, destroying each other. my mom never comes home earlier than 8, 9 in the evening (i don't even know if you can consider it evening, more like night i say). so who the hell is gonna wash and hang those clothes out to dry?? i wonder man.

next person to go... bernie choy. my beloved boyfriend. he's gonna go serve the nation and be a man as they would call it. four days after my dad. yay. after he's gone, i'll be one hell of a lonely person. everyone's too busy for me nowadays. projects, ccas, boyfriends and what nots. not that i don't neglect my friends every now and then for my boyfriend, but i'm trying to squeeze every little amount of time that i've got. i'm fighting with his family for time with him, well, it's not that i wanna take him away from them, but they will see him way more often than me. i'll be in australia in less than a year. hey, what are my chances of seeing him then? anyway, i'm backing off, fighting with his family. it's not worth it. i might not be attached in days/months to come or even when i leave, so what the hell. frankly, i never thought i could be so attached to a person. never was that way. ah, i'm getting too weak for my own good. coming to poly has changed me. i've made friends, but would they remember me when i'm gone, i wouldn't know but it seems i'll find out soon enough.

one by one... people are leaving me somehow. i can't seem to stop it from happening. guess that's the way things are gonna be and i'll have to settle with that.

oh yes, on a lighter note, played monopoly at cecilia's place the other night. woo hoo.. i won!! i self declare that i'm the QUEEN of MONOPOLY!!! hahhaa...