In a dilemna.. a bad one.

Eric asked if i wanted to head down to taiwan with his bro n sis in law. naturally, i WOULD want to! very much in fact.. if it wasnt for these few stuff
1. Results of the M1 interview
2. Driving practical lesson dates, other schedules tt come with it
3. Shimin n Celin's chalet

the thing is.. if i dont go, eric doesnt feel like going. and, WHAT IF i dont go.. and i dont get the job? well.. there are a million n 1 what-ifs! its gona b a paid trip for him! argh.. i'm reali in a dilemna... to make things worst, i REALLY ReALLY REALLY do wanna go on tis trip with him! but sometimes..i've got to think of the "bigger" picture.

just told him my circumstances... he's upset. clearly. Who wouldnt. Dissapointed more likely. hope he wont stay pissed/mad/angry/pekchek/dissapointed with me for long. feels bad. very bad. theres nothing much i can do either. It came so suddenly. i didnt plan for it. it wasnt meant to b like tis... but still..

i wish i could go with u.... if only i had a little more time at hand.. sorry it turned out tis way. really am.

blog bout my day tml!! :) its a happy happy happy one... just that... im a lil troubled now.. hope darL wld feel fine soon.. :(